Sunday, January 29, 2012

I had a dream


Today……
I had a dream this morning. 
It was terrible. 
I woke up in a panicked sweat; moaning. 
It was the first time I spoke of it.  No one would listen to me.  She told me she didn’t believe me.  She only believed him.  My worst fears were coming true.  I cried uncontrollably. 
I should have remained silent. 
I was powerless. 
I was nothing. 
I should have remained silent.

A few days ago……
          I had a dream.
          It was terrible.
          I woke up with chest pains, rapid heartbeat, shaking, sweating; panic.
          I screamed at him to leave.  I told him he did not belong here. 
          He was coming for me.  He was not going to leave.
          My worst fears were coming true.  I could only scream NO!  Help would not come, because help would not know to come.  I was alone.
          I should have fought back.
          I was powerless.
          I was nothing.
          I should have fought back.

A few weeks ago……
          I had a dream.
          It was terrible.
          I woke up scared, sweating; crying.
          I saw him hovering over me.  I did not understand why.
          I realized he hated me.  He wanted to destroy me.
          My worst fears were coming true.  He finally figured out a way to do it and now he was here to end my life.
          I should have told someone; anyone.
          I was powerless.
          I was nothing.
          I should have told someone; anyone.

3 comments:

  1. Fact is always stranger than fiction. Love you, my friend.

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    1. Exposure is the key, so here it is: My day-terrors have turned into night-terrors. I will no longer remain silent giving power to my enemy. For those who don’t know or those who don’t believe it, well, I just want to say that monsters and boogeymen are real. If they don’t haunt you by day, they will haunt you at night. This is my truth!

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